Since it happened, I’ve been wondering how the Porco murder would change Marshall’s view of the world and his future relationships — would he never again trust anyone to be who he thinks they are? How would he deal with this? Marshall has been open but not overly talkative (heh) about it, but he wrote a really good post on the Porco Trial Blog saying he feels no remorse for losing a psycho killer but he does feel remorse for losing the friend he thought he had.
Now I wonder about everyone else. Obviously there are lots of terrible, sick, violent criminals but I always thought there was a way to explain, if not forgive, their actions. I thought they must in their own minds justify what they did. But with Christopher Porco and what he did — I still can’t explain it nor imagine how he thinks about it.
P.S. I’m glad The People won.
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Links:
video of the verdict being read (WNET)
Yesterday there was a thing in one of the papers that some new evidence showed up that was promising. I think they will find something to print about it every day but maybe on the back page.
Today is a big milestone in the Porco case. It’s the first time in months that the case is not mentioned at all on the front (web)page of the Times Union. What will all the Porco-Trial addicts do?
I haven’t been talkative because there’s no good way to say how I feel. Most people are probably thinking, “gosh, this must be so hard on Marshall and everyone else.” It was horrible, the month after it happened in December 2004 and for some time following that. It’s no mystery how we felt–betrayed, sad, angry, but mostly just really weirded out. Whenever a bunch of us are together and we talk about Porco, we don’t usually just say, “I can’t believe he did that!” Instead, we usually talk about all the fun stories we had involving him, and how we miss the “old Porco,” despite the fact that we know he stole from us. Even though he did, he was still a really fun person who, at least from our point of view back then, was nice to us.
Right now we’re all relieved and just feel the same as everyone else. We’re happy he’s behind bars because he killed his parents, and although it seems kind of sick, it’s kind of fun to have a story like this to be able to tell–how many people can say they lived with an axe murderer? My story trumps anyone else’s.
As for “explaining his actions,” he had a huge web of lies that was crashing down and it pushed him over the edge into
a psychotic frenzy. Who knows if this was even because he was a psychopath, or if he was just one of those people who doesn’t know how to react to really intense anxiety?
I’m just happy that he’s locked up, because I was going to have to go undercover and protect Marshall otherwise; but I would have done it.
What a harrowing story to include in your college experience.